World Poetry Day: my poems


That’s Love
Who am I to stop your if you want to be free?
I definitely cannot make you love me
I don’t want to hold you hostage, that isn’t love
I only want to be there when things get rough
Love doesn’t try to change the one who receives
instead it changes the person who believes
Love isn’t about me, it’s about you
its about my heart and all that you do
Love is content with loving, no more no less
it doesn’t force itself or leave a big mess
Love doesn’t always get it’s way, but is happy to wait
and I want you to know coming back to me will never be too late
I will always love you just the way you are, the way you want to be
and it won’t disappear just because you don’t love me

Helpless and Alone

Helpless and alone I stand watching you walk away
I would do just about anything for one more day
My heart lies broken and bruised
I am tired of being used
I fell in love with you, you are such a good man
I think you had feelings too, but you turn and ran
now I am here, brokenhearted, in agony
knowing deep down inside you will never love me
I can hear your voice, though it is just a whisper in the night
as my soul lies dying and yours takes flight
Tomorrow there will be no sun, it all seems so bleak
how will I survive another tortured week?
Your heart is cold as ice, turned to stone
as I stand here helpless and alone


I find myself walking away, though I want to hold on
nights are so long, but I fear the dawn
If I could live in my dreams, you would be mine
now I wait for an answer, hoping the sun will still shine
to be held safe in your arms was once such happiness
now the pain in my heart never stops, it’s endless
If I ever hear you sweet voice again, it will tear me apart
you walked away forever, taking with you my heart
How can you be so distant, so far away, so damned cold
when all I ever wanted was you near me to hold
so I face another day alone and I try not to cry
and leave you with a simple question…


I loved you so much, I gave it all I had
and now thinking of you only makes me sad
what happened to us, you were my best friend
and now you’ve decided our journey should end.
So many tears, so many memories, they haunt me like a ghost
of all the others before, I will always love you the most
If I could change the past or move mountains with my faith
I would not be in such agony from the haunting of the wraith
Shadows of you in my mind, on my heart, falling in my tears
stinging pain as I know the end of us comes closer and nears
I want to strike back, make you hurt like you’ve hurt me
so I say things I dont mean, hurt you selfishly
please dont break my heart I beg you now, I beg you still
because darling I love you now and I always

The Reason I Voted Trump

I suppose I could go on for a few days on this subject, but one of the main reasons I started supporting him was that he isn’t a career politician. In fact, in my opinion the name statesman is more appropriate. In the following paragraphs I will give my arguments in support of the greatest President of my life time.

Donald Trump is a successful businessman who knows how to negotiate deal.  He doesn’t just go out and say, “Hey you supported me in the election so I will give the business to you.”  He looks for the most inexpensive way to do things, which we desperately need right now as a country. The less something costs, the sooner we will get our debt down.

He also doesn’t believe in Big Gov’t.  The less employees it takes to get a job done, the more the taxpayers save and the more our 19 trillion dollar debt disappears.  He is cutting government spending, cutting jobs that don’t need to be there, and cutting our aid to foreign countries. Why should we support foreign countries who hate us? Why should we send money to other countries, when we can’t support our own?

I also supported Trump because he promised to bring back jobs to America. During the Obama presidency we lost over 60,000 companies that moved to Mexico, China or another country.  More are threatening. Before he was even inaugurated, Donald saved over 100,000 jobs from leaving America. He also has promised that if a company chooses to leave, he will impose a 35% import tax on all their goods.

Trump is renegotiating NAFTA and has dumped the Pacific Trade Agreement that would’ve only hurt our already hurting economy.  Barack Obama brags that he created jobs.  THe only jobs that were created were part time jobs or contract jobs with noe benefits or very little. We need our good jobs back, with good benefits and great pay.  Donald Trump promises to create jobs and do it bigly.

As President, DJT has also stopped funding Planned Parenthood, an organization that promotes abortion. Some say they provide women’s health, but call them and ask about mammograms. They promote abortions over anything else.  You local health department also provides mammograms, free birth control and pap smears. Planned Parenthood also sells body parts.This is an evil, selfish organization that supports murdering the innocent. Unborn babies have no rights in their eyes all the way to the day of birth, which is supported by Hillary Clinton.

Speaking of Hillary, she is another reason I voted for Trump. One of the most evil, vile politicians I have ever heard of in my life time.  Just take a look at Benghazi, or her deleted emails, or pizzagate.  Also her helping a rapist go free, and I am not speaking of just Bill. She advocates open borders, more Muslim refugees and NWO global government.  She has nothign on her resume to show for 30 years of politics and then there is the Clinton Foundation and pay to play.  Or what about sending ISIS and Muslim extremists arms? She and Obama literally created ISIS.

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that these are the main reasons I supported Trump. Pluse I am a Christian, and so is he. Also, he is one of the most compassionate, moral driven men I have ever seen. If only Congress had more men like him in it.160118134132-donald-trump-nigel-parry-large-169

What Success Means

What Success Means to Me

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Success means different things to various people. To some people success means climbing to the top, having lots of money and valuables or being powerful. To some success is doing what they always dreamed or to be the best at whatever they are. Success to me is a bit different because it is about God and about a certain attitude.

A saying that I have always had is this, “Don’t base your success on what you have but on the impact you have on other’s lives.” Simply put, you can’t take it with you but you can make a difference. Growing up, there was always a certain cloud of negativity over everything and anything we did or accomplished so it was very hard as an adult to try to rid myself of these views.

Philippians 4:11(n.d KJV Scofield Reference Edition Bible) states “Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state that I am, therewith to be content.” I would like to add to this statement. Do not just be content but count your blessings. I guess this is what I refer to when I speak of attitude. You can choose to feel successful. You can affirm to yourself that life is what you make it.

For me to feel successful, I have to feel as though I am doing more than just for myself. It is easy to be selfish and think only about one’s self. The feeling of accomplishment when you have helped others, or an animal, or the environment to me is feeling success.

What I did learn in my Student Success class isn’t so much about success as much as it is about self image. How I look at myself, how I judge myself and my own self-talk. The Leo videos reiterated what I already knew but needed to hear put in words. In other words, “Life is what you make it”, or you can see the cup half full or half empty it is your choice.

For example, my ex-husband has a new house, a new car and plenty of money but he is not happy with it. He wants more, because he is not happy with himself. Somehow is gratification is not in what he accomplishes. So, because he is not happy with himself, he will never be happy with what he has. To him, success will never be obtained.

I had to learn in my life to appreciate the little things in life. A smile from my child, my dog’s wagging tail, the beauty of the sunset because for me poverty was always lurking at the door. I found happiness and success in actually having enough money to pay the rent or being able to take the kid’s out to Wendy’s because often times, I didn’t have the money.

I think self-value and self-worth are often confusing for some individuals. If a person does not have either of these two, they will never be able to define success. Nothing can be a success to a person who always wants more or who does not value who they are.

When I get a 100% on a test that is a small piece of success, because it boosts my ego and my self-worth. Graduating from Sanford Brown will be part of my success. That is my personal success.

The second part of success to me has to do with others. Being able to make new friends, making a difference in other’s lives and feeling like I accomplished something worthwhile at the end of the day to me is success. Closing my eyes at night knowing I helped someone is success. I’ve spent my life in factories working for another person to get rich off of my hard work. There was no happiness for me in working there. Helping others through the medical field would be making a difference in others lives. It has always been what I wanted to do.

The third part of success to me, which is the most important part is spiritual. I have a great desire to please the Lord and serve Him with all my heart. Helping others would make that possible which would be success to me because I accomplished something I wanted.

Back to defining success. According to ,is defined as an event that accomplishes it’s intended purposes. This means to me that I set a goal and achieve it. My goal is to be able to live independently without help from my parents and not feel as though I am a burden. Going to Sanford Brown will help me achieve that goal. By taking one step at a time, a day at a time, a goal at a time, I will be successful in this goal.

According to Lou Tice, in the videos from class, “Thoughts accumulate and become belief,” and “People with low self-esteem will belittle those with high self-esteem to make that person feel like less to make themselves feel better.” Because I deal with this at home, I need to work on my self-talk to improve my self-image.

Controlling Your Emotions

Controlling Your Emotions: A Testimony of God

Uncontrolled Emotions Can Be a Bad Testimony of Christ

In the world today, it is easy to let our emotions control us. Remember the old adage, “If it feels good, do it!”? This is a good example of the world today. We concentrate on what we feel. Not that feelings are a bad thing, God gave them to us for a reason. Realistically speaking though, emotions can get us in a lot of trouble if we let them control our lives. They can destroy us mentally, financially, physically and spiritually. Taking control of your emotions is not an easy thing and only through Christ have I ever been able to do so.

I Peter 5:8 says, ” Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.” If you look at this verse and think about it, it’s saying if we need to control our mind and stay alert to what’s going on around us or Satan will use it against us to ruin our testimony as well as our well being.

Emotions such as rage, anger, lust and vanity can ruin our lives and hurt others. Selfishness among other things can cause sin to run abundantly in your life. Beware of people who put you down as a person and as a Christian. The people who put down Christ may enrage you but think thoroughly on your answers to them. It may make the difference down the road when they come to a crossroads.

We represent Christ and may be the only Jesus anyone ever sees in their life. We need to be filled with His love and His grace and His understanding that we always give a good testimony.

How do we do that you ask? First by having a personal relationship with God. It helps us to not only live right but control our emotions when we think how it will affect Jesus. I would like to share a verse with you on this subject.

James 4:7 “Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.”

The he who flees from you is Satan. Put Satan under your feet. Speak it out loud if you must.

Ephesians 6:11 “Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.”

Ephesians 4:14 Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of men in their deceitful scheming.

Another thing I do when the emotions begin to overwhelm me and try to take control is to pray. To tell God what is going on and ask Him to take control so that I don’t say or do the wrong thing. Believe me, this is not easy but the evidence afterwards is more than rewarding!